Discovery!

Picking up from what I left previously, here's another list of 10 things you do not know about GebuDebu:

1. He is hopelessly romantic and almost near to a dead fish. Need I say more?

2. The only BOUQUET of flowers he ever bought me was a FAKE. As in PLASTIC. But in my favourite pink and purple. That compensated.

3. He farts! Finally, I found out he's just like any other ordinary human and not perfect. I gave out a sigh of relief. Phew~

4. He hardly listens to me. Like how I told him not to buy spicy tuna and he bought exactly the one I asked him not to. Having the man's ego, he rather said "Okay-la" than admitted "It tasted horrible".

5. He is still never punctual and I'm "infected" with the disease too. Bad, bad, bbbaaaaaaaaad news.

6. He is still shaking his leg without him actually realising. Like ALL THE TIME!

7. He has the best "tebubu" on earth!

8. He drops up to 20 leg hair per day. Errr, almost true.

9. His car is his baby. Like really BABY, BABY!

10. He dislikes roll-on but has stopped using spray because BodyShop roll-on smells nicer.

11. He spends longer in the bathroom ever since he had a new obsession. The nose trimmer.

12. He can differentiate all kinds of jazz music which I absolutely have no idea! Acid, Smooth, bla bla bla...

There you go. Oppss, more than 10 pulak! ;p

Ah-ha..no revenge ok?

Deep breath

The impact is so great that I lost my temper. The good thing is, I did not shout. I just said what I should be saying and those were not pleasant words. What would you do if someone told you something that was like so 300% sure as if swearing on grandparents' grave that he/she would not do it but you've found out he/she did totally the opposite of what he/she had told earlier?

The excuse: It just happened.

Yeah, right. Because you allowed it to happen!
Feel the betrayal? Please, someone, anyone, just please enlighten me.
I'm on the verge of doing something I never thought I would do it in my entire life.
I was and am completely DISAPPOINTED with the action. Btw, do you ever see people who do not admit their fault/mistake although it's bloody obvious like the elephant standing in front? Would you support action that you knew was not right? That was what I did. I DID NOT. I'm currently paying the price but the truth is, I shouldn't be feeling this way. I wasn't the one who initiated it. I'm prepared to lose something because I don't see any worth in saving it especially in situation like this. It's just so not worth it. I'd rather be the bad person in your eyes but I just can't do something that's against my heart.

Screw you OCPN!

Would you, if you were me?

When I was in Standard 6, my BM teacher, Pn. Pauzi asked this question: Lain kali siapa yang nak sambungkan pelajaran di luar negara? Everybody in the class raised their hand high except me and another girl that I've forgotten who. During that time, I was so sure that I wouldn't want to further my studies overseas when I have the opportunity. Come on, which 12-year-old would want to think leaving their parents one day, right? Especially one like me who melekat & melekit all the time.

Today, things are different. People grow and their mind changes all the time. That include me, obviously. Learning people whom I've known had left the country to further their studies sometimes got me envious. I question myself; why didn't I do it when I've got the chance? I could have continued my Advanced Diploma in college and left the external papers out so that I could go to UK. Even for a mere 3 months in UK and not years, why not? SO, YEA. WHY NOT?

Well, I just couldn't at that time. Being the youngest doesn't get me anywhere I want. So stop thinking that the youngest gets it all. I chose to continue in Uni because I didn't want my dad to struggle and strive so hard anymore. Things would be different if I were the eldest in my family. At least, my dad would still have the time frame to earn again which was what he actually did for the rest of us. He's not getting younger in any day. If I were to insist to continue my studies in UK, no doubt my dad would allow me to do so. But, what's the point of me coming back after graduation with his shoulders are bearing all the loans and debts just because of me? Don't forget, we have to x7 for the pounds. This would be unfair to him. He has worked so hard all his life to make sure he has provided enough for the family. It is really the time for him to enjoy his life right now with my mum. I'm glad I didn't make that decision because it's happier this way. At least, mum and dad can go for holidays nowadays rather than saving up to pay for my loan. And the coolest part is I can tag along ;) It's a win-win situation, right? Heh!

All my bros had the chance to study overseas except for me. I might be jealous during that time but come to think aboout it, there's nothing to envy in the first place because they are all my bros. Blood and flesh.

I take things as they come because I believe everything happens for a reason. Good things especially will come to those who wait. But you know, good things must always come to an end as well. Sometimes I wonder, if I chose to go overseas, would my life still be the same as now? Would I still encounter people that I've known now? As much as I hate the bad or sad things that happened to me, I would not have met GebuDebu if I never choose to go down this road. I can't tell you how great he is because he is never great but he is the best thing that ever happened in my life for now.

To be honest, I had 2 very miserable failed relationships in the past. You know how people always act the best when they are trying to go after you? And do you know what's the worst feeling? Being the person who discovers day after day he is not someone you used to know. That's when I'd throw the towel. Like you go and buy DVD, the seller told you super clear one only come back to find out full of human heads and shadows. One word. DISAPPOINTED. I'm sorry but I have to say, till this day, I still think my 1st ex is too childish for his age. Perhaps, this is what insecure guy does most. May God bless him, anyway. For my 2nd, oh gosh, he is SO by-the-book type. You know, like A is A, B is B and C is C... The most incredible part was when he talked to me using exactly the same words I spoke to him. *bangs head on the wall* I admit, I'm really bad in handling situation like that. At least, for now I don't have to repeat the same thing twice or thrice because I know there is one person who understands instantly. Not the charming one. But the one who behaves and stays exactly the same from the first day I get to know him.

Things I've said might sound simple and would seem like no obstacles at all but trust me, it has been more than that. Not only particularly in relationship but other matters in life as well. Friends, family, people I've met, work, study, the transition and changes. God made me went through things like that. There's always obstacles ahead. My life was never a smooth one not even until today. I don't have that kind of luck certain people own. I've been a wreck but I know when to stop and stand up again. I believe, those were tests to shape who I am today. To be humble always, stay firm on the ground and thankful for what I've got.

Back to wondering, would things be similar if i had chosen the other path? What if I were given a chance to choose again? If I could, would I?

Hmmm... I'd love to experience a different thing but the answer is NO. I don't want to be the one who enjoys the best thing in life, partying day and night while leaving my dad at home working like a bull to support my gala life there. NO WAY. Not in my second life. Like GebuDebu said, mati and then hidup balik also never! Nevertheless, if I have the time machine to go back, I'd want to make minor changes on certain things. Things that happened in the past. And if only I could prevent some deaths...

Seems like I've written too much today. To me, it's never good to expose so much of my inner thoughts which I consider as private because it makes me feel unsafe. But there's always an exception, right? :) Anyway, to those at the office, thank you for reading. Now go back to work :p

The unknown disease

Cannot eat.

Cannot sleep.

Cannot sit.

Cannot pee.

Cannot study.

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Potter Fever

Eh, today is 21st of July 2007! The Potter Fever Day! Hoorayyy!!!

The first and yet the most ridiculous sms I've got today was, "Wanna know who's Harry Potter's wife?". Absurd-la this guy. So I replied, "U bought it? If u read it online, DON'T TELL ME! Buy at hypermarket is cheaper. Bookstores won't sell today cos they boycott last min." Eh, chup-la ok before you start to kutuk-kutuk me. If I got the money, I would buy from Kinokuniya or Borders or MPH also but I'm just a student, remember? What do you expect from a poor one like me? Difference like RM40, can? RM40 can buy a nice meal + appetizer at Kiku Zakura already and with changes somemore! He replied, "I know, my nurse bought d pre-order. I've read the last chapter. Already knew who died." Arggghhhh!!! Damn cheating oneeeee!!!!! Mana boleh like that??? The worst shit would be he only will buy the book after he watches Order of the Phoenix next week! OMG! How to wait like that? Die flat...

Anyone, pretty, pretty, please wanna buy me the book? I promise I'll behave. *blinks eyes repeatedly* So poor right now. You'll find out why next month. Perhaps, the Potter-itch is so great that I can't stand anymore and buy it later at the nearest Carrefour. Then I'll have to survive the entire month with either kulit roti or kulit kayu. Babi Potter! Gosh, this is madness. :(

The Q to avoid

I was on the phone with my mum a while ago. I wanted to check how's my curtain's condition as it finally arrived in a package earlier today. Then I asked when will she be here again because life is bored without her around. The truth is I miss seeing her. Anyway, she is just out of my sight for barely a month and it feels like months with a big "S". She chuckled upon me asking her that question. Dad was beside her and he mentioned something. Mum gave out a cunning laugh and said, "Your dad asked, when you wanna work har?"

Actually, I quite dislike people asking me that because they do not understand and see from my perception. But of course, my dad can ask larh because he's the one who suap me now and I'm not the I-am-against-my-parents type. I gave mum my ladida excuse and told her yes, right, soon. The point is, I've worked before and I went back to study because I hate working. I hate the politics at work. I hate backstabbers. They are everywhere eventhough you've done nothing wrong to them or even disturb them in the first place. And most of all, I hate bosses that are full of nothing but only tonnes of shit.

To me, Working = Unnecessary Stress + Sakit Jiwa + Perasaan Benci, Menyampah & Meluat.

By hook or by crook, I have to complete my studies by October else my thesis will be considered as F.A.I.L. and all my effort will be DUSSHHH by then. All I ask is, can I have the last few months, doing my thesis as slowly as possible while enjoying to the max before I'm released to the cruel society and become the lifeless, anti-social and miserable person again? Just this once more, please.

What does it feel like to be a doctor?

Picture from msn.com

Yesterday's episode of Grey's Anatomy left me craving for more. Yea, yea, i know i might be this super slowpoke outdated person who only watches Grey's Anatomy on NTV7 when others could have caught the latest episode on Astro or some even downloaded it. But I tell you what, I seriously can't remember all the showtimes on Astro because there are too many good programmes that I want to watch and at the same time, too many channel numbers to be remembered. Let alone the day and time. For the time being, i only can remember ANTM8 on Tues and Punk'D on Thurs. So bloody limited, man. I mean my memory space. Tambah lagi those channels like E! and AstroOnDemand, where you can practically glue your eyes on the idiot box the entire day, memang spell out k-h-o-n-g laa.. How to study like that???

Alright, back to the storyline. It was about a ferry collided with a container ship. A catastrophe and completely chaotic at the same time. Many lives to save. Get the picture now? The face of the pregnant lady was horrible. It was all swollen. I was holding back my tears watching the show because wei, really sad one larh.. Or maybe i'm this emo queen :p The best part would be when the black man accidentally pushed Meredith into the sea and I was like wtf. I really hope Izzie could save the guy pinned under the car in the next episode though.

If I were in Izzie's position, I would freak out too. Looking back, joining SJAM during secondary school was because all my bros were SJAM members. So, why not me? I've learnt the CPR, how to wrap bandages as well as foot march. Frankly speaking, I don't remember much of all those despite getting "Asas Terbaik" (muahahaha.. i seriously DID NOT deserve it) but i think (note: I THINK!) I can still do CPR. It is always a good feeling to help people especially those I came across during performing my duty for MSSD. Those were runners who either fainted halfway across the field or came jumping to me on one leg because the other one was having muscle cramp. Yeah, they were sweaty, dirty and geli but still, I had to massage and urut them like those hands of mine did not belong to me. The frustrated part would be the first aid kit was never a complete one. No minyak cap kapak or any shit. Just the bottle filled with yellow liquid and I can't remember the name. If lucky, there would be plasters in the kit but we always had to bring our own kain bandage along. The kain bandage did serve a good purpose though. Me-lapkan my sweat away :p

So, after all the exciting experience, why didn't I choose to do medic? Well, I would love to be a doctor but I don't think I can survive the education in the first place. Secondly, I'm this panic machine on either big or small situation. Finally, BLOOD. I can only stand those from my PMS and nothing more. What can I say? Kudos to my bros!

Order of the "Foong"

Wow weee.... Order of the "Foong" is really marvellous but the book is super-duper 10x better la, of course. I'm kinda waiting anxiously for the final book to be released but at the same time having the opposite feeling because it will be the FINAL book, duh! And obviously, there will be more deaths which I really really really don't want to read about, so how? Potter, oh Potter... Evil J.K Rowling and pity big big B-I-G fan like me. :(

Btw, I was in MPH and saw this extremely cute Disney Baby Minnie Mouse wearing purple blouse with purple bow on her head. Big head, small body. So you can imagine how adorable it can be. Price is not expensive as i thought. I carried the Minnie Mouse like a baby the entire time i was there eventhough i didn't have the intention to buy it. GebuDebu said i was mad and wanted to buy it for me but i told him for now, my bed is really really conjested with the "little kids". So, there i was, carrying the oh-so-cute and choosing a birthday card for SOMEONE-la :p (p/s: Az bought you the card :p :p :p) Finally, we had to leave and i hid the adorable thing at the lowest rack, away from anyone's sight. Oh, i'm so bad but i'll miss you, CutePurpleMinnie. I'll check you out to see if you're still there when i'm at MPH again the next time :)

Mystical

I was watching this and couldn't help but cried, especially the last part by the girl's grandma. May your soul R.I.P, little girl.

If the pasangan berzina were the killers (innocent until proven guilty, ok?) I hope they'll get lifetime jail instead of kena hang because I don't want them to die so easily. Let them get whipped on the butt and their feet to be burnt once a day. And yeah, they need to have cow dung for breakfast, lunch and dinner. The guy will have to kena liwat by 10 gays while the woman will have her V-area being thrust by whatever sharp and painful object that is possible. Err, did i mention all on daily basis? And please, please, please allow them to sleep with fireants. Dang!

Tell me, what has the world turned into? Why is it suddenly everyone is surrounded by darkness and evil spirits? Is this sort of like a pre-Hungry Ghost month thingy or what? Like indicating, "Watch out! We will be back REAL soon."

Start to pray more, my friend.

Stupid textbox can type alreadyyyyy

A message from a very old friend of mine. I read and chuckled.

"....citer2 ngan member lama..tapi memang rindulah kat hang sook theng. aku ingat lagi hang suka ambik eraser aku waktu kita form 5 dulu..pas tu hang potong eraser aku kecik2..hahahahahhaha..aduih...."

Sigh~ Looking back, I was really naughty and..... I admit it. In fact, I've done more than just cutting the eraser. Nevertheless, I've grown up and changed a lot to be a better person..... BUT still reserving the mischievious side for certain people :p

I miss those days. Those young, carefree and vibrant days. I will look back. I definitely will. :)

*beeeeeeeeep*

Yes, I've taken the previous post down. I guess it was too harsh and a little bit unsafe.
Btw, does anybody realise my post does not have any title? Cos the title textbox is disabled.
Why har?
Haiyaa, chin chai larh...
No need to crack my head for a title.

My Goddess

Why do little kids have fringe that are straight like a ruler?

Scroll down to find out!

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Answer: To look cute in photos and real life!

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