Deep breath

The impact is so great that I lost my temper. The good thing is, I did not shout. I just said what I should be saying and those were not pleasant words. What would you do if someone told you something that was like so 300% sure as if swearing on grandparents' grave that he/she would not do it but you've found out he/she did totally the opposite of what he/she had told earlier?

The excuse: It just happened.

Yeah, right. Because you allowed it to happen!
Feel the betrayal? Please, someone, anyone, just please enlighten me.
I'm on the verge of doing something I never thought I would do it in my entire life.
I was and am completely DISAPPOINTED with the action. Btw, do you ever see people who do not admit their fault/mistake although it's bloody obvious like the elephant standing in front? Would you support action that you knew was not right? That was what I did. I DID NOT. I'm currently paying the price but the truth is, I shouldn't be feeling this way. I wasn't the one who initiated it. I'm prepared to lose something because I don't see any worth in saving it especially in situation like this. It's just so not worth it. I'd rather be the bad person in your eyes but I just can't do something that's against my heart.

Screw you OCPN!