Jiwang oi!

Autumn wrote about personal stuff. It got me thinking and i'm touched. It has been a while i haven't been writing on something deep. Deep enough to get you lost in the woods ;p There are thousand and one things playing on my mind yet i can't seem to express it verbally or writing it out. I dunno, i really dunno. Perhaps there are important things that needed my attention that has refrained me from letting it go. Instead, i have chosen to suppress. *takes a deep breath*

Of all the things we do, there are certainly uncertainties ahead. How far or determine are you going to make the uncertainties to be certain? How badly do you want things to work it your way by taking others into consideration? How do you keep things alive? Take a relationship for an example. Is it by making it a routine and incorporate it into part of your life be counted as one of the targets in life being achieved? Finding someone, getting married, growing old and lastly dying, does that mean you have fulfilled your human life cycle? Is it that important to purposely GRAB someone you THINK you like so that you can tell the whole world that you've completed another phase? If yes, bullshit then cos you do not know the meaning of life and loving someone.

Finding the other half is to complete your life. Nevertheless, without the other half, you can still achieve life satisfaction in your own ways. Not having a gf or a bf, or not getting married doesn't mean the end of the world. What's the point of you doing something just for the sake of doing it and because everyone is doing it. Relationship is not a kind of "follow-the-leader" game. You need mutual feelings and understanding to make it work and last forever. Going out for movies and dining out every weekends are not romantic. I call them another pure routine. You did it because you find it your responsibility. Yes, you have to play your part to make a relationship work but not to the extend of formalizing your responsibility. Not only you make it dull and kill it with your barehands but you are viewing the entire relationship as a form of business. You "invest" now, you "earn" later. Hello??? Is that so? If yes, you are a FUGLY MUGLY UGLY JERK!

Learn to let go things that you should let go. Grabbing, clinging or holding is not the right way to own something you have doubt on. Love is an accident that happens when you least expected. Hunting, searching or scouting is not the right way to discover the other side of a person. In fact, it's a set up used to cover an ugly side. Routine? Scrap that. Else you'll be hearing "oh, you are so bored" or "my feelings have gone" 3 years from now. Everyday is full of surprises so as your life. Why make it predictable? That spoils the fun part of it, don't you think? I'd rather choose to change ppl's mindset by surprising them with the fact that they never thought would be a truth one day. Sounds complicated rite? Not really if you can grab the root like i do. ;)

Sorry, i ter-preached "rubbish". Job disease. Can't help it. I don't expect anyone to understand it anyway. By the way, i can be interesting if i want to be because i see things as beautiful pictures and not just plain objects. ;) Life is definitely sweeter when you float around.