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I would like to declare today is the:


WORST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!


WORST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!


WORST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!


WORST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!


It just couldn't go anymore wrong than this. The sueh-est day and incident ever occured in the history of my life. Whoever FCCBKSOB you are, i curse you to be banged by a car the first thing you cross the street tomorrow. Better still, God takes away your hands and feet since you do not know how to utilise God's good deed by giving you the ability that some people couldn't even have when they have wished for a million times. If the first curse does not work, i curse you for the second time where you'll rot to death in an old abandoned house and your corpse will not even be discovered because the wild dogs and cats will rip your flesh and bone which will not be savoured until the last bite because they stink just like when you were alive! Yea, even dogs and cats know how to differentiate and choose! And then your flesh and bone will be carried by the animals to every corner of the world and they will just drop it and *PHUI!* at places like on top of a lump of cowdung or with a mountain of used sanitary pads! Your body will be scattered everywhere and the point is I-DO-NOT-WANT-YOU-TO-REST-IN-PEACE, youfarkingchaocibaikiasonofabitch! When was the last time i scolded somebody CCB? Go figure! And thank you for ruining my life! Mentally and emotionally raped! In short, mindraping! *crying out loud in the center of the world*

I'm so traumatized by this whole incident that i feel a chill down my spine everytime the "what if, what if, what if" question pops into my head. The thought of it creeps me deeply inside and i can feel as if there's a thrust in my heart. So painful. I really, really hope like all the time, after a few days i'll be better. I feel very insecure right now. KL sucks. I want to go back to "A LOT OF STARS"!!! :'(

I don't feel like talking to anyone right now. I can't cry because my entire body hasn't recovered from the shock yet. Everything is farking dirty. My things are gone. All i want to do is to sleep and wake up with another better day ahead. But i have doubts on that because tomorrow is a farking thursday. I've never felt so defeated in such a long time. Gawd, why would You wanna make me go thru such a test/trouble anyway? At this moment, I just want to stay under my father's arms.