In a box called "Mind"
***Forget about the previous post. The fire keeps coming back whenever I read another comment. Shall release diu-lady's tyre's air and that diu-husband's tyre's air when i got the chance. Damn farking easy to recognise one of those "wannabe" cars. Wanna kan, wa kan ho lu khua. Okay. Stop. Shut up. The end. Period.***
Ever in your life that you hold on to a principal so tightly that you never thought you would give up? Have you ever been so firm on something and never have a clue it might change one day? Did it ever cross your mind that something you would forever say "no" and now you are contemplating to say "maybe"? Hah, no! I'm not talking about s.e.x. Something beyond that.
I have always believed that I was born the way I am and I should stay the way it is. Nobody can change me unless I do it willingly myself. I don't believe in forces. Even if I am not happy about anything regarding myself, if i am given a chance, i seriously do not want any changes. I accept myself, the one with the flaws, completely incomplete one. I am a Buddhist but I don't think I am a pure or devoted Buddhist. Neither do i plan/want to convert to any religion because I believe I've been put here for a reason and the same applies to everyone else. I'm not sure how should i put it. I'm here today simply because of the existence of my religion or purely because of my parents' guidance? I can't really answer that for a moment. But there's one thing I'm sure, during my growing process, I learn through observation and absorbing the good norms which eventually shape the person i am today.
I've been bombarded with a question lately. Something i would just flicked my fingers and said "no". But that day, my mind froze. All of a sudden, I had second thought. I wasn't sure how to answer that. I wanted to say "no" but my heart didn't want to. Never have i thought i would be caught under these kind of circumstances. I've always read news with people going against the norm and thought these are the drama queens. What's so hard of sticking to your faith? I totally experienced it and I'm not sure what i'm holding right now is favouring or against myself. I hope that it would be a "one-hit-wonder" kind of thing. I shall not think too much.
Ever in your life that you hold on to a principal so tightly that you never thought you would give up? Have you ever been so firm on something and never have a clue it might change one day? Did it ever cross your mind that something you would forever say "no" and now you are contemplating to say "maybe"? Hah, no! I'm not talking about s.e.x. Something beyond that.
I have always believed that I was born the way I am and I should stay the way it is. Nobody can change me unless I do it willingly myself. I don't believe in forces. Even if I am not happy about anything regarding myself, if i am given a chance, i seriously do not want any changes. I accept myself, the one with the flaws, completely incomplete one. I am a Buddhist but I don't think I am a pure or devoted Buddhist. Neither do i plan/want to convert to any religion because I believe I've been put here for a reason and the same applies to everyone else. I'm not sure how should i put it. I'm here today simply because of the existence of my religion or purely because of my parents' guidance? I can't really answer that for a moment. But there's one thing I'm sure, during my growing process, I learn through observation and absorbing the good norms which eventually shape the person i am today.
I've been bombarded with a question lately. Something i would just flicked my fingers and said "no". But that day, my mind froze. All of a sudden, I had second thought. I wasn't sure how to answer that. I wanted to say "no" but my heart didn't want to. Never have i thought i would be caught under these kind of circumstances. I've always read news with people going against the norm and thought these are the drama queens. What's so hard of sticking to your faith? I totally experienced it and I'm not sure what i'm holding right now is favouring or against myself. I hope that it would be a "one-hit-wonder" kind of thing. I shall not think too much.
Purple Rose
5 Drops of Water:
At 21:56,
Anonymous said…
wat was the question?
At 14:31,
chichi said…
perhaps you've finally being hit by one of the fundamental questions of the mere existance of a human being. Who are you? Why do you exist here? What do you believe? Do you believe in God? Is there a God?
Great blog you got here. Keep writing! Btw, Syed just told me that you're a colleague of his! damn small world right...
-Mei Qi-
At 22:49,
Purple Rose said…
anonymous, "Will you marry me?" was the question ;p If i wanted to reveal, I would have revealed it. I'm much more curious to know who you are. ;)
chichi, thanks for dropping by. Syed? Sounds funny to me ;p Yup, small small world indeed. Say hi to Jin, and i'll help u say hi to Az. ;p
At 01:45,
Paul Ooi said…
be urself
At 10:02,
aizafareena said…
well, i kinda went thru that period whereby i questioned everything regarding my faith and the purpose of my existence ... and i ended up in the psychiatrist's room, believe me ;) you see, there's nothing wrong in being inquisitive about this stuff ... but tread carefully, you know what i mean ... and it's cool to have a faith, too ... because we always have Someone to thank at the end of the day =)May God bless ya ...
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